Thursday, March 4, 2010 | 5:07 PM

Messy

Time really flies. Its march now and my life's been in a mess. As much as my priorities are being messed up, I really want to ORD like crazy.

Today is 6th of march, the release of A level results for the 09 batch. It is exactly a year since I collected mine. And since I graduated from nj, life hasn't been treating me well. The highlight was enlistment and I didn't know what was in plan for me. I was offered a totally different path for everything I wanted, from uni applications, to army vocation, friendship relationship and my family, everything in life. I started searching for my destiny, changing and hoping to fit into whatever environment Im thrown into. It didn't work. The more I try to fit in, the more dejected I got. I gave up.

The start of 2010 saw better treatment for me. And I became a much happier person, though still living in a self-centered and hypocritic environment. The upcoming 11 months will have its own series of turbulences and problems, more detrimental effects, but with the seeds I'll sow, I'm pretty sure of a bountiful harvest. Its gonna happen!

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can.