Today I feel so challenged and rejuvenated to blog about my thoughts, for future referencing sake, for myself. The start/end of every week is an occasion where I feel an influx of faith and hope, and even so when I got to know more people who are so positive about life despite anything that could happen. I wouldn't know what would happen tomorrow, life might just end, but I'm just following my directive and I know I won't ever regret that. I could sense so much hope, in relation to the thing I know I want most. As an ultra-ultimate pessimist, I couldn't help thinking about how else it might fail. However, I know that if I do not courageously take the first step, everything will soon melt down like an ice cube on flames. Moving back to my point on living positively and light-heartedly, I feel really thankful for the introduction of some people into my life, be it just a passing figure or a close friend who spoke to me, inspired me and brought me back to sanity. Thank you. I want to grow, and only with these passing people can I do so at ease.
Few days ago, a fellow camp-mate asked me, "Have it ever crossed your mind to pick up smoking?" He asked that because I've been hanging out with the smokers everyday in camp. I told him no, and I raised my eyebrows and gave him the are-you-crazy kind of look. After a while, his words chanced upon me again. Five months ago when my friend talks to me after smoking, or when the smokers start smoking, I will make it a point to leave the area. However, recently when A asks me to chat with him while he smokes, I no longer need to speak to him from a distance, I feel no irritation even when he smokes right in my face. I feel nothing. As if I'm inhaling pure air. I realise that I've already grown immune to passive smoke. When A learns about this, he offered me a cigarette again and told me its just social smoking. But even so, I stand by my principles to not pick that up, it is the addiction that terrifies me. Its a life-long thing and I can already feel the pain and discomfort trying to quit smoking one day. So, never pick up smoking.=)